My Plant Medicine Journey

I have always been interested in Ayahuasca or DMT which is also known as the spirit molecule, since I was about 16 years old. I watched a documentary on Netflix and it caught my attention. I have always been interested in matters of the universe, I even used to do my projects in school on space and the universe. It seemed so intriguing to me that you could drink a tea that has been brewed and it would help you purge/heal from past traumas in your life and could help you see your life purpose. It seemed like it was so out of this world, I never thought I would do it. Until I did last year in Costa Rica.

Over the last 5 years, I have met so many people who have drank the medicine and shared their experiences with me. In 2021 it kept coming up everywhere, it was calling me LOUD and clear. I knew deep down I had to do it I just had to find the courage to do it. I knew there had to be more to this life, than the life I was living. I was looking for something with more depth in my life with more meaning. I was hoping ayahuasca could give me that. One night when I was working on the yacht in Greece after a hard shift, I called up Rhythmia in Costa Rica and I booked it, for 1 week. After I made the phone call, I hung up and cried because I knew this was going to change my life, and I had no idea in what way. I didn’t know what to expect at all, but I knew it was going to be very exciting.

So May rolled around pretty quick, before I knew it I was on my flight to Costa Rica. I hhad travelled to Costa Rica twice before to a surf and yoga camp in Tamarindo, but this time I was going back for a different reason. I arrived and stayed in Tamarindo for 2 nights before I got to Rythmia. I was so nervous I kept thinking to myself if I had made the right decision or not. There were so many thoughts running through my mind. I pulled an oracle card the morning I was leaving for Rythmia and I pulled the card “Crossing a threshold to a sacred space” from the work your light oracle cards, which meant moving into a sacred land, It was clear that I was on the right path. I felt instantly calmer and knew I was making the right decision. I felt like everything was aligning for me in that moment right there.

The Rythmia van picked me up, I had the whole van to myself and I was given a healthy snack and was told to watch an introduction video from the founder Gerry Powell. I was so excited and nervous at the same time. I arrived and I was checked in by the very friendly staff, and I was welcomed with a cold towel and some coconut water. I was then shown to my beautiful villa where I shared the room with another woman.

I arrived and got settled in, and I got chatting to a few people at lunch who seemed really friendly. We were all pretty nervous but also so excited. We began with an introduction class, where we were told all about what would happen over the next week for us to get our miracle. There is a whole programme designed specifically for you to get your miracle, it included, 4 nights of drinking the medicine, integration classes each day, 2 colon cleanses, massages, volcanic mud baths, delicious vegan food, metaphysics classes, transformational breathwork classes, yoga, the dance of liberation, 3 the answer is you classes designed by Michael Beckwith (The guy from the Secret). They also talk about what to expect to see, feel and go through the next couple of days, which is helpful especially for your first time so that you are prepared for what’s to come.
Later that evening we had a breathwork session with everyone up in the maloka which is a big space where the ceremonies are held. I had an amazing breakthrough the first night with breathwork alone, I was crying, felt love, joy, bliss, relief and felt like bits of my soul were coming back again. I couldn’t believe that you could have such an amazing experience from your breath alone!

Monday night comes around, the first night of drinking the medicine, and we were all dressed in white, we had been fasting since noon that day. As you walk in you could smell the beautiful copal, the sage, and there was also beautiful music playing, it felt very sacred and special it felt like coming home. I walked in with everyone and I found a mattress where I was going to be nestled in for the night. All the mattresses had a blanket, pillow, bucket, shot glass for the medicine and toilet paper. I wanted one away from everyone, so I wouldn’t be distracted by other people. There were 10 shamans in the room all dressed in beautiful clothing and they looked like earth angels. The ceremony began with a blessing on the medicine, a chant, to ask permission from our ancestors to use the medicine. It was incredibly sacred and beautiful to watch I wanted to get up and join them! At the time sunset was happening and it was beaming in the window, dusk was upon us, as we were about to take a journey to the soul. How Exciting!!

We all gathered and started to line up and prepare to drink the medicine, there was no going back now, that was it. It’s very important to set an intention before you drink the medicine so that you are clear about what you want out of it. I started to walk back to my mattress and then all we had to do was wait in silence for the medicine to kick in. After about 40mins I could feel this beautiful warm gentle energy move through my body and veins, and the music started. At this point, I’m like oh-oh, here we go, so I asked that the medicine to be gentle with me, to show me how to trust her, and boy did she do that! 

I felt the entire natural world was moving through my veins and my body, I could see lots of beautiful colours, fluorescent colours, nature was me and I was nature, and everything was living in harmony together. It was like nature was putting on a badass show for me. Everything in the universe was dancing, and the medicine was welcoming me home, it felt like an initiation. I just burst into tears, everything that I have been searching for all these years and what I feel on such a deep level in my soul was this feeling right now, the ayahuasca in my body. The colours, the shapes, the music, everything had brought me to that moment, the medicine was welcoming me home. I never felt so clear about who I was. It was bringing me on a journey through the universe it was so incredible I couldn’t stop smiling and being in awe of what I was seeing and feeling. Then I started getting an uncomfortable energy as I was letting the outside energy affect me of everyone purging around me, so I went over to one of the shamans, and she gave me some of this incredibly sweet essential oil lotion that made me feel instantly better and I crawled back to my bed. I enjoyed seeing how nature and the universe work with beautiful colours and shapes it was truly the most amazing magical experience I have ever had. This went on for about 9hours. Then the music stopped and everything slowed down, and I couldn’t stop smiling and laughing, it was amazing! Everything I had been through and every hardship and obstacle brought me to this moment of just pure bliss and joy.

The second night however was very different, very dark, demonic energy came over me, I was battling my darkness, very strongly. I was letting it consume me. I knew the only way through it was to surrender to it, accept it, and know that it will pass. Which it did. Just like everything in life. They called for the second cup of medicine to be taken and I was like hell no I am not going up. But the only way out of that was to drink more medicine. So I waddled up with two shamans on either side of me and drank the medicine and it brought me into another beautiful reality. I felt instantly better. I then had a moment where I saw my soul. I could feel the essence of who I was before I came into this world, and how I had forgotten it. How coming back down into the physical world from the spiritual world was lowering my vibration. I didn’t want to leave the cosmos, it was so amazing nothing like I have ever experienced before in my life.

The third night, was the divine feminine night. By the third night, I was feeling uneasy from the night before, I wanted to leave, but I stayed, the divine feminine night was the best night of my life. I was merged back with my soul, I never felt more clear on who I was, I was up dancing, letting the ayahuasca move through my body and dance with the rhythm of life. I was letting it move through me. It felt unfamiliar at first but then I got more comfortable and confident in it It became very natural, it was almost like a remembrance of what I had forgotten. It was absolutely badass!

As we moved into the final night, I really couldn’t believe I was going in for the fourth night of the medicine. I was thinking to myself at the time what was going to happen next?, I couldn’t do another Tuesday night that’s for sure. The last night on the medicine was a lot longer. It started at 9pm and finished at 11am. It was a lot more traditional and slower which was very beautiful. I just lay on the hammock for the entire night outside while I was processing some thoughts in my mind. The experience came to an end and we all received a blessing at the end. Then we had a wedding at the end of the last night which was beautiful. I couldn’t believe it. I had just done 4 nights of medicine.

I had survived, and I was now on the other side of that journey I was so scared to make. I had a vision while I was there to go to Bali, so that’s what I did I journeyed to Bali, I booked my flight, which took me 8 flights and a week and a half to get there along with 7 PCR tests and 5 a day quarantine in Jakarta. I am so incredibly grateful that I made that journey to take ayahuasca. I felt such an incredible connection with the universe and the earth, I couldn’t believe I was so scared of something so beautiful. I would describe it as this beautiful feminine energy that comes in to heal your wounds, or your ancestral wounds remove all the layers of toxins and trauma from the body so that you can become more of who you truly are! It literally brings you home to your true self, you also go through a few ego deaths as well, which can be tough, but are very necessary.

The integration part is the real work, that’s where everything you have learned and healed from actually plays out in your real life, you need to do the work in the physical. Its all fine having beautiful and magical experiences but if you don’t do the work in your physical life they wont come true. They say when you do ayahuasca you are healing 7 generations behind you and 7 generations in front of you. Its work that’s no joke! The medicine can still be in the body for up to 6 months, and even afterwards the medicine is still working its magic on you.

It can be an incredible journey to take if you want to understand the universe and yourself at a deeper level or just to feel pure unconditional love. You do not need to be spiritual at all to drink the medicine. It’s a drop of concentrated nature, made up of the caapi vine and carcuna leaves when mixed together releases the DMT all your doing is drinking nature that’s it. In my experience, it was coming home to where you have come from before you enter into this physical world. Pure unconditional love. Besides the magical feelings, and visions that you have. It can help heal from past traumas, pains, addictions. It isn’t something to be feared but rather something to feel immense gratitude for, that we have a natural plant that can help us heal and fulfil our purpose in life, help us see past the veil of illusions in the world and into the spiritual world. We are so much more than just these physical beings. So much more. I honestly feel that nature holds all the answers we seek, is this the true medicine that we should be taking?

If you are looking for more depth in your life, more meaning, more direction, healing or simply just curious, plant medicine can do that for you. Its not for everyone, and that is ok, but if you are interested and would like to know more on this topic you can schedule a call with me, and I can explain it in more depth and point you in the right direction.

Do you hear the whispers of your soul calling you?